Tuesday, 20 December 2011

Last post for 2011

Well folks, the year draws to a close and its been a pretty damn good year.  The weight loss stalled but in the big scheme I'm a hell of a lot lighter now than I was.  I'm finding it so hard to find the motivation over this time, I'm hoping the New Year will bring a renewed vigour.  Its the eating that is doing me, chocolate every day arghh.  No will power at all and the cravings are back.  I will need to detox myself off the chocolate again but know that until Xmas is over I'm going to be faced with it and I can't say no.

Exercise wise I'm still working out, I can't believe how fit I am now.  And knowing that my fitness will only improve as I continue with the working out.  I've grown to love sweating, to really enjoy the ache of muscles that have been well used.  I took today off because I did 30min stairclimbing yesterday as part of my work out and shesh my thighs are feeling it today.

I'm ok with the way I look, the top half of my body is looking pretty good.  Alas my stomach, hips, butt and thighs just aren't giving up the fat.  Typical female weight holding really.

So anyway, 2011 you've been a good year.  2012 will see me reaching goal.  I'm going to think long and hard about my New Years resolutions, I did better this year than I imagined - out of my 15 overall weight loss goals I have 5 left so need some new ones.  Non scale goals because I've only got two scale goals to go.

See you all next year, have a great Xmas, enjoy family/food/fun.. whatever it is you do for Xmas.  For us we're off to the beach until New Years.  And then it will be three weeks until my one year weight loss anniversary.  I look forward to stepping on the scales, to taking a photo and to be able to share with people my continuing success.

Thursday, 15 December 2011

A photo I like!

A goal met, a photo taken of me that I like.  Of course, you can't see anything of me other than my face haha.  But funnily enough because I can only see my face when I saw the pic I went shesh I actually look normal.

Kerry, Me and Gemma, nicknamed the Mouldy Green Condoms (with Chris also a green condom but he is taking the pic) before the Foo Fighters concert on Tuesday.  Which was freakin awesome.  Foo Fighers, fuck yeah!

So I can cross that NSV off my list, a photo I like.  Here is hoping I'll have some soon that include the body.

I'm not losing, but I pretty much figure if I don't gain its ok.  Because I'm still exercising, I'm getting four to seven work outs in a week, from swimming to the gym to running.  Still working of C25K, its been raining and with FF this week and kids I've only had one run this week.  Fingers crossed I'll get one in this week.  I swum 3km on Monday.  I have a new goal, to be able to run 5km AND swim 5km.  Actually I'm thinking I should start running to the pool because it is 3km to the pool.  Its the eating that I'm off plan, but you know how it is at this time of year.  I've had Xmas party after Xmas party and so much chocolate given to me (I have even given some away).  I got more today, bless my staff.

As the year draws to a close I am very happy.  Its almost one year of weight reduction, will be interesting to see how much I've lost come 1 year.  I've lost more than I thought I could, I didn't think I'd be able to get under 100kg and here I am in the 80s.  80s, fuck yeah.

Saturday, 3 December 2011

Xmas party #1

I did so good!  We arrived and as usual there was all the pre-lunch snacks, lollies and chips everywhere on the tables.  None passed my lips.  Lunch was a buffet of festive delight, I stuck with salads but that is because I don't like meat.  Pasta, roast vegetable, green salads nom nom.  Dessert I did have some chocolate mousse and fruit salad, but I resisted cheesecake, chocolate eclairs, pavlova, trifle and ice cream.

I wasn't even trying, I wasn't tempted in the slightest by the lollies and chips, when normally I'd be munching on them from the moment I sat down.  The salads were all healthy too, nothing with fatty dressing nu-uh.  The roast vege salad was one I made (potato, pumpkin, kumara, carrot, mixed nuts all roasted and the dressing was a light coating of balsamic vinegar, basil and honey all mixed), its so good it is my new fav salad.

I didn't leave feeling all bloaty and sick.  Usually afterwards its like too much need sleep argh.  I felt good and in control.

Thursday, 1 December 2011


I've spent the last week at my Mum's house, no exercise and not in control with eating.  But happily I'm sitting at 86.3kg (190lb) so only 0.3 up from my lowest, which really is nothing more than a usual fluctuation so in my mind I haven't really gained (great how we can fool ourselves haha).

I have Xmas party this weekend, and then two next week and another on the 17th.  Shesh.  But I know I can offset it all with exercise so yay.  I'm aiming to be reliably under 85 by New Years.

And right now I'm drinking vodka, so cheers!

Wednesday, 23 November 2011

Possibly why I am zen-less

TOM showed up this morning, I was vaguely thinking it was due sometime in the next two weeks.  This is only my third one since having Oakley so I'm not really regular yet.  Even though DH had a vasectomy I'm going to go on the pill soon so that I can regularise my periods hopefully, the reason being I want to make sure I'm not having them at the start of February because we're spending a week on a tropical island.  Niiice.  Another reason to keep up the good fight and begone the bulge!  Not that I'm working on a bikini body, but just less wiggly and jiggly for the photos that will be taken.

DH got home from Aussie at 1:30am, but then he had to go to work so finally we got some alone time tonight.  He has work tomorrow and then we get 1.5days together and then he is off to Aussie again for the last week.  I missed him terribly this trip, not helped by him forgetting his phone so we couldn't text, and not loving that TOM showed up so we couldn't even get all naughty because I feel grumpy, fat, and sore.

Also, no exercise since Tuesday coz I ended up having the kids yesterday coz there carer's Mum had to go to hospital, today I had just Willow and tomorrow both kids stay home.  I do love having them at home (they are only still going to their carer while I am on holiday so that she gets money and doesn't have to take on other children as then we may lose our spot and she is beyond awesome) but I hate that I can't work out those days. Esp days like yesterday when it was raining so no even going out for a walk.

So yes, another totally off plan today and not expecting a happy scale to great me tomorrow, but c'est la vie.  Maybe I'm getting a bit of zen back after all?

Cheese and bacon roll
Gingernuts [5]
Chicken sammich
Big Mac, Fries
No exercise

Monday, 21 November 2011

I just want to eat

I hate days like this, its boredom eating and all I want to do is just go nomnomnom.  Its not having Neil at home, the kids are in bed and I've got nothing to do.  So I know it is boredom, I'm trying to "thing through the eat" but I find myself wanting to bargain.  If I do an extra 30min exercise I can eat X.

The frustration of weight loss is starting to get to me.  How much is slows down, the bounce around, the slipping self-control.  I'd love to lose 10kg in the next two months which I know I could if I was super determined, but I'm not.  Not with the holiday season looming especially!  But if I did I would reach goal in exactly 1 year.  That would have been awesome.  But I need to be realistic and remember any loss is good, focus on how much better I feel.

I'm losing my zen today, it best be a passing phase!

Cereal and milk
Small handful of snippets [~5]
Couscous and chickpea salad [couscous, chickpea, tomato, cucumber, capsicum, chicken stock, corn]
Toast [2 slices, one vegemite and butter, one peanut butter]
Banana chips [? less than 10]
2.2km swim (1 hour)

Another Monday

Not much to report really, DH is in Australia again so its just me and the kiddies and I'm missing him.  Not sure when he will be back, hopefully Thursday but as he is due back over there again next week they might just tell him to stay over the weekend which will suck.  At least once this month is over he won't be heading back anytime soon and work should settle down for him.

I was completely off plan over the weekend, but scales don't seem to be showing too much damage.  86.4kg and that was weighing in at lunch time because I had forgotten.  So after breakfast plus water.  I might just have to weigh tomorrow to get a better idea, or I might just not and see what Friday brings.  Trying hard not to focus too much on the scale, get away from my creeping obsession.  I was thinking I should have done "no weigh november".  I've lost another cm or so around my midsection (I don't find measuring to be very accurate as I'm sure I always measure slightly different places, but I have def lost some).

Started week three of C25K yesterday and did another session today (one actually running, the other on the treadmill).  I think I might need to repeat this week, I can't see me being ready to graduate to the next level next week.  But all good, I'm getting better at running on the treadmill, and I think it is helping me with pacing which is where my big problem is.  I am running too fast, no good at the slow jog.

Cereal and milk
Chicken salad sammich [for lunch and dinner, 4 in total]
2.3km swim (1 hour)
30min treadmill (C25K week 3)
10min elip

Thursday, 17 November 2011

Maybe I'm in the 180s?

So I weighed in at 86kg (189.5lb).  I really bounce around its amazing, I weigh on a Monday and a Friday, and sometimes I sneak a scale peek during the week.  It seems the closer I am getting to goal the more I want to weigh to see how I change, and the more I fluctuate.  But it seems I've finally broken the 88kg bounce (I kept going from 88 to 88.5 and 88.8 and down again).  Now I just need to see 85 on that scale and that means 100lb gone.  Next week I will see that number.

Today is going to be a reaaaallly bad day.  Oakley's birthday party, chocolate cupcakes, peanut butter cups, fairy bread, lollies are the bad food on the list.  I just ate a big yummy chicken sammich and I'm planning on eating a little bit of crap but to stick with the strawberries if I feel the need to snack.  I'm stoked though because I made peanut butter cups which are so easy but I've never done.  My friend who is coming is dairy-free so I was trying to think of good dairy-free foods and ended up finding the recipe for dairy-free cups and thought man those are so easy to make!  Peanut butter cups aren't a food that is common in NZ, in fact most people have never tried PB and choc together!

But I'm not stressing over it, if I pig out c'est la vie.  I'll go for a run this evening and get in at least one other work out over the weekend.  Long term trends are what matter, not weekly weights.

Log: Thursday 17 Nov
Cereal and milk
Strawberries [4]
Vege fritata (4 egg whites, 2 full eggs, carrots, spinach, pumpkin, broccoli, capsicum)
Chicken salad loaf (from bakery, with mayo and thick white bread)
Few chocolate buttons [~5)

No exercise

Tuesday, 15 November 2011

From the garden

There is something very satisfying about eating food you've grown yourself.  For example the salad I had this evening (lettuce, spinach, chives, basil, tomato) were all ingredients from my garden.  I am so excited to see things growing and anticipating using them.

We are growing:

  • peas
  • beans
  • carrots
  • tomatoes
  • lettuces
  • capsicums (bell peppers)
  • spinach
  • broccoli
  • cauliflower
  • various herbs
  • spring onions
  • strawberries
  • grapes (two varieties, but they won't fruit until Jan/Feb)
  • Other fruit trees non summer
It is truly awesome!

Log: Wednesday 16th November

Cereal and milk
Chicken salad sammich [1] (chicken, cheese, cucumber, lettuce, tomato, wholegrain bread)
Green salad (lettuce, spinach, chives, basil, tomato)
Lasagna (tomatoes, onions, beef, pasta, cheese, herbs)

1.5km swim (45min)
42min elliptical
approx 1000cals burned

Log: Tuesday 15th October

Cereal and milk
Chicken salad sammich [2] (chicken, lettuce, tomato, cheese, whole grain bread)
Mini muffins [6]
WW McD Seared chicken burger (chicken, bun, lettuce, tomato, no dressing)

2km swim (1hour)

Monday, 14 November 2011


I have decided I need to start tracking what I am eating and exercising.  Previously I haven't had much success with doing it on the comp, for some reason pen and paper work better.  But I'd like to do it here to keep it all together.

Today is Oakley's birthday, one!  How is my little man one!!

Also I swum 2km today, it took me an hour.  I use to be able to do 3km in an hour but I'm pretty stoked that I can swim more than 500m still LOL

Monday 14th November
30min treadmill (c25k week 2)
15min bike
two circuits weights

chicken salad sammich [2] (chicken, lettuce, spinach, basil, cheese, tomato, roasted capsicum, whole grain bread)
strawberries [4]
chicken salad (chicken, lettuce, carrot, tomato, capsicum)
potato (1/2 medium)


Friday, 11 November 2011

Silly NSV

With little kids things get lost.  Yesterday it was the TV remote, and as we have a TV that has to be used with the remote it was a dire situation haha.  Anyway Oakley had put it in to the hole in the speaker,  a hole that neither Neil nor I can get our hands in to and unfortunately Willow couldn't work out how to turn the remote around to get it out the hole (imagine the video of a dog trying to take its big stick through a doorway).

So I was wondering what to do about the situation and thought I'd see if I could use my fingers to turn the remote around, I figured if I wiggled enough I could get the remote orientated correctly and then Willow would be able to get it out.  Well, turns out I have lost weight in my hands and wrist because much to Neils shock I could get my hand in there.

I don't know why I continue to be so surprised by my own weight loss.  I mean, my medical alert bracelet which use to be tight on my wrist is now so loose I can take it off over my hand no need to undo it.  I actually am going to have to go get some links removed.  My wedding ring is now too loose for all my fingers and I'm going to have to stop wearing it until I lose the last 10kg and stabilise (I break chains so not keen to wear it around my neck).

Neil actually stopped and took a proper look at me and he was amazed at how much I'd lost in my arms as well, that same reaction as I had about my arms.  Mrs Munchberry you're so right, across my shoulders and my upper torso must be where I've lost the last 5kg.

TL;DR my hands are little enough to get in our speakers

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

A new list

So awhile a go I stole from Mrs Munch a list of things I most hated about my body.  Yesterday I went clothes shopping and had the chance to stare at myself in a full length mirror (we don't own one) and now I have a new list.

1. Mummy tummy
Oh yeh, its still number one.  But yanno what, its gone down!  I didn't notice until I stood on the side and realised that it really isn't so bulgy pot-belly!

2. Boobs
I use to love my boobs, now after two kids and a weight bounce of up to 130, down to 90, up to 120, down to 86 I'm starting to look like one of those woman from a long lost African tribe on some nature documentary.  Just a whole lot more white haha.

3. Thighs
I know I've lost weight in my thighs, I can tell because I fit smaller pants.  But they don't look like they have gone down.  There is soooo much fat there argh.

What's not on the list that use to be?  My arms!  My bingo wings that would continue to wave even when my hand stopped moving.  Yanno why?  They've reduce.  Holy fuck I didn't realise until yesterday but I am no longer deadly ashamed on my upper arms.  Today in fact I'm wearing a short short arm top.  They're not sexy, they're still fat and flabby and hangy down.  But they're not wings anymore.

Also while trying on clothes I got a size too big because I thought that was my size.  I thought I was still XL but nope, L.  And size 16 was loose but size 14 too tight.  Actually today I have a size 14 top and a size 16 jeans.  So in between sizes but yeh getting on in to those 14s.

Sunday, 6 November 2011

40kg gone

86.2kg, woohoo!  From my heaviest I am now down more than 40kg.  I am so happy and it is motivating to see those numbers and think that come Jan 24th next year (which will be one year of weight loss) I should be at my 75kg goal.  And then I will reassess.  Because I would be over the moon happy at 75kg although it is still over weight and for my height I should be in the 60s, but I can't imagine that.  So we'll just have to see.

Neil is in Australia until Wed which actually makes weight loss easier food wise because I can eat what I want without having to cook different/extra for him and then being tempted.  But I miss him and he hasn't even been gone 24 hours yet.

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

Progress pics!

Me at around 120kg (265lb), I don't have a photo at my heaviest. And then me today at 88kg (195lb)

Me in my old fat jeans. No way am I ever going to fit these again

Wednesday, 26 October 2011

I'm baaaack

Bring on the holidays!  Yep, I'm on break from work until March now and so its back to focusing on weight loss.  I maintained throughout the semester, fluctuating up and down around the normal body phases of 2kg.  At the moment I am 89.1kg (196lb) and hoping to lose around 0.5kg a week.  I can make it to the gym 3 days (the days the kids are staying in care), but hopefully I'll get a fourth workout in as well.

I was thinking about low carb again, but its too much hard work -LOL-  I want a weight reduction plan that fits with my life with nothing being off limits.  I love pasta and bread and sugar.  And yeh that is probably why I am fat so giving it up would be good, but I just can't do it!

So my plan?  Simple, I'm going to plan.  Back to writing down what I'm going to eat and then recording what I do eat.  Back to having goals and trying to achieve them.  Back to focusing on me and letting all the stress go.

I'll do the rounds and say hello soon.  I have Willow at home with me today and we're off to go play now.  But I wanted to log in and start my journey again.

Sunday, 2 October 2011

Because I said I'd post them

Ok so here are pics of a very messy night, in more ways than one -LOL-  I haven't really drunken alcohol for more than 4 years, and I haven't been this drunk for 10 years I'd say.  So here we go - drunk Brydget dressed as a geisha.  Note to self, never paint your face again.  But at least I only did my face, the theme was "professions", K decided to be a black 80s gym instructor, she is a super white girl so hilarious.

Our paint came off as the night progressed - I had facial dandruff all night -LOL-  By the end of the night all around my mouth was gone.  Had to wash my face before I could go to sleep, woke up with black arms though because I used black hair spray on my hair.  But awesome night!

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

There is no such thing as failure, only feedback

So title is one of my favourite sayings.  And I'm really there right now.  I have learned and realised a lot the last few days.

  • My taste in food has changed
I was given chocolate today and like an addict I scarfed it down - I hadn't had lunch due to hectic day so when J came in to my class this afternoon with chocolate temptation took hold.  In the lab you're not allowed to eat so I was being naughty twice over!  After class I ate some more while I was marking and as I crammed some chocolate in to my mouth I suddenly realised that chocolate while tasting good doesn't taste fantastic.  It use to be flavour orgasm in my mouth.  I then wrapped up the chocolate and brought it home for DH.  While I know I will get cravings again it was like a light went on in that moment and I suddenly realised just how many foods I had eaten lately that I had thought yanno this is ok/good instead of ohhhhhh more more more.

  • I miss and need exercise
Waiting until end of semester to exercise sucks - its not an excuse to get out of exercise like I began to wonder.  I am just so busy and by the end of day way too exhausted.  Normally I'd go this morning but my to do list is growing instead of shrinking so I had to make the hard choice and do work (because normally I go when I should be working technically, got to love my job!).  And I miss it, I want to go.  I can't wait until end of semester (two weeks!).

  • I'm no longer just a fatty
I can join in conversations about exercise etc without feeling awkward.  We were talking about the gym yesterday, before I would have just been silent but I was like oh you mean the seated row and then even joked that I was proud that I knew what it was.  My friend who is training for a marathon and running around 20km 6x a week at the moment was talking about her run, I laughed and said I was proud I could run 1km and yanno what?  I AM proud.  Before I would never admit that I couldn't run that far, but now I'm like bring it, think what you want say what you want - yeh I'm fat but I'm not just a fatty anymore I'm getting in to shape.

So there we have it, I'm in limbo for another couple weeks, I will probably gain because I have social engagements both weekends including alcohol drinking (I'm going to get drunk for the first time in 4 years!).  But its not going to be a derailment, its conscious.  I will endeavour to make wise choices and I will accept a gain but will not resign myself to it.  If it goes on, it sure as hell is coming back off!

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

Lying to myself

I ate total crap tonight, and I found myself writing this post about how it wasn't that bad blah blah.  I'm zen and its ok because I'm in maintenance and I'm not losing or gain blah blah. Then I realised I was so making excuses.

To be honest I'm pretty fucking pissed at myself.  Why did I eat food that I don't even like that much or enjoy and OVER EAT on it.  And end up feeling crappy.  And mad.  Fucking hell get it together.

Someone needs to kick me in the ass, I'm not bendy enough.  Another goal to add?  Being able to kick my own ass?  -LOL-

Monday, 19 September 2011

Where does our time go?

This semester is just insane.  It is revving up to end of semester, less than a month and it is over!

I've got a friends birthday party in two weeks, I'm going dressed as a Gaisha (well that is current plan), I'm super excited about it and will take pics to post.  I've never wanted to take photos before but I find myself not hating the camera so much now.  Today at the gym I took a serious look at myself (we don't own a full length mirror, just mirror over bathroom sink!) and was like wow ok I really have lost weight.  Sure there is heaps to go, but I am over the half way mark.  I'm almost 100lb lighter so of course it shows, but you know I am only really now just seeing how it shows.  Luckily no one was in the gym because I was fully checking myself out -LOL-

I need to pee, so I'll call this done.

Thursday, 8 September 2011

Maintaining v2.0

So semester is back, so I'm on maintenance mode again.  Sucks because I know I should be able to lose weight just by watching what I eat but I love food and reducing my cal intake just doesn't seem to work.  I'm eating healthy though so all good.

I've had two comments in two days about how good I'm looking so booyah!  Clothes are fitting better even if the scale isn't budging.

I have a school reunion in about 6 weeks, would be nice to lose a buttload of weight before then but really I'm just stoked to be where I am.  I'm not about to starve or go silly, because I know that doesn't work for me and I'll put it back.

Slow and steady wins the race, and stays alive.

Wednesday, 31 August 2011

Xdream awesome!

The gym has got an Xdream, which is a simulator style bike.  Man it is cool fun.  You're on a stationary bike (similar to the spin bikes), but you have a comp screen in front of you and you bike tracks.  You have to go around corners (leaning), go up and down hills and feel the bike respond, different surfaces like dirt or gravel.  It has brakes and gears, but as I don't know how to ride a bike (shocking I know) I just peddle away.  But my butt hurts after 10min -LOL-  But man, 10min and I'm sweating and don't need to go any longer.  This is a screen shot of the comp screen.

In other news I was a good samaritan today, keeping my good karma points up.  When leaving the gym there was a lady carrying her young child (about 2) and it was raining.  I drove past her and then did a U-turn when I realised she wasn't walking to a car and then stopped and gave her a lift (because I have car seats of course).  She was so grateful, but I was like hey I just hope if I'm every in your position some one will do that for me.  Because I know carrying either of my kids is a killer -LOL-  A new little boy started with D yesterday (D is a lovely lady that looks after my two kids, plus two others now).  He is 18mos, and slightly smaller than Oakley (who is 9mos)  haha.  I have monster kids.


So I've been good this week, been to the gym three times.  Out of curiosity I jumped on the scales and I've put on weight!  WTF.  I know its a fluctuation, but it pisses me off.  Then weight I lost last week is back.

See this is why I could never weigh daily -LOL-  I should know just Mon and Fri.  Oh well, we'll see what happens on Friday.

I have been doing awesome at the gym, really pushing myself on the bike which I haven't done before.  Before I'd get on and cycle away but I'd never really be sweating a whole lot, now I get off drenched because I spend at least 10min really pushing it (well for me, RPM at 85+ and resistance 3-6).

Today I resisted lemon cake and chocolate brownies.  I had a three hour workshop and of course there was candy and cake.  I had a banana.  I felt very virtuous but man those brownies looked good -LOL-

Thursday, 25 August 2011

And the scales says...

strip off, get on the scales, watch the numbers fluctuate and squint down until they stop blinking.  Get off and bend over to double check that yes it is reading 88.4kg (194.9lb).  Just over 1kg (2lb) loss this week. wo0t.  I needed that.  I was scared that I was saying I was going to maintain but really I had just lost motivation.  But nope, I feel back on track (at least for another week, and then probably maintenance mode for six weeks).

At the gym today

So I'm not a social person at the gym, I like to get a sweat on and day dream or listen to music.   So today when a lady sat next to me and started talking I was really regretting that my mp3 player was flat!

She was a chatting away and I was being polite but not overly talkative.  Then she busts out with how I should use her as motivation "you see, I've lost 10kg [22lbs] since November, if I can then you can too".  I couldn't help myself when I replied "that's great, I've lost about 30 since January", then after I thought oh man was that rude?  Should I have just said how wonderful and then kept my fat mouth shut?

I'm weighing tomorrow morning and I'm hoping for a loss.  But if not no biggy, because I know my jeans are feeling loser in the legs so wo0t.

Tuesday, 23 August 2011

Oh yes I'm still here

So term has ended, absolutely insane.  I now have two weeks of recess but so much marking, there is no way I'm going to get through it all, or everything else I need to do.  More hours needed.

But I'm back on the weight loss train.  I went in to maintenance mode and kept my weight steady, no loss or gain so not bad.  I've done three work outs in the last three days, tomorrow is a rest day, and then Thurs in another gym day.  Not sure what I will do Friday, but something to get my booty moving.  I want to go hard for the next two weeks because I will probably have to go in to maintenance again for the last six weeks of semester.

Weight=89.5kg (197lb)

Sunday, 31 July 2011


Well I'm still maintaining, my weight is sitting there at 89.5kg.  I feel a little guilty that I'm not losing, but I am trying to focus on everything else in my life and figure not gaining is all good.  Partly I know I'm excuse making, but also I'm hoping that doing maintenance for a bit will help bust the plateau I was experiencing.

We went for an awesome walk today, it was only about an hour stroll (Willow pace for about half the way, then adult pace) but it was so great to be out in the bush.  We found a cool little waterfall, a spot we are thinking about doing Oakley's naming ceremony.  I miss the bush, where Neil and I grew up we were so much closer to nature.  Hamilton is all pasture land, while Rotorua was surrounded by bush and lakes.

Monday, 25 July 2011

Post weekend weight a-oK!

So I expected a gain after the weekend, its pretty normal for me.  But hey, no gain!  89.5kg and holding strong.  Which is good because the winter weather is getting to me.  I have so much to do for work, trying to get exercise in is becoming a massive chore.  And by the time I'm home at night I cannot be assed working out.  Yes excuses I know.

So my plan is to go in to semi-maintenance mode for a month.  I will watch my diet but exercise will be less as long as I don't gain.  If I gain then I need to get my butt moving more.  In a months time I am on break again and can ramp up 2 weeks.  Then winter will be over and as the weather starts to turn and days get longer and mornings warmer it will be business as usual.

Friday, 22 July 2011

Big hair 80s here I come!

89.5kg!  89.5kg fuck yeh!

I am so stoked to be in the 80s, I've not weighed this since I was a teenager.  My weight loss has really slowed down so I needed to see this.  I have been waiting to break the 90s barrier.  I am accepting of a slow down, I figure as long as I continue to lose even if it means having to measure in 100g instead of 1kg increments.  I've got the rest of my life to either lose weight or stay fat, I'm going with reduction thank you

And for ya'll, 89.5 is 197.3lbs, fuck yeh!

Friday, 15 July 2011

Midsummer #3

Third work out done.  Leg work out on the kinect instead of pilates.  Willow joined in, god so cute!  She told me off in one instance because I wasn't doing one of them right -LOL-

I've installed a tracking app on my phone, to track calories and exercise.  I feel like I need to really refocus and get down below the 90kg mark.  I've been hovering too long, bouncing up and down.  It really is the weekends that kill, so come on, keep the focus!  Lets make it through the weekend without regrets.  Oh and the hubby, second time in a week he has bought me chocolate bar when he has gone down to the store.  I told him no, he ate the first one.  And then tonight he rocks in with a kit kat.  Grrrrr.  Come on Mr, get on my page would ya.  I will ignore the siren song, I've told him to eat it so he will probably snack on it later.

Thursday, 14 July 2011

Summer splashing

Next challenge is up and running, Didi's Midsummer Splash challenge.  I've worked out two times so far, really hoping to be able to do 20min x 7 days although on weekends with the kids it is usually pretty hard to get anything done.  If its fine I can take them in the stroller so I can at least get something done.  And once they go to bed I'm just too exhausted.  Good thing is I have pilates DVDs so really I should just pop those in after they go to bed and do it (although DH usually complains then -LOL-).

I would love to do the swimming one, I really miss swimming :(  I have decided that next break (5weeks from now) I am going to add swimming in to my work out schedule for the two weeks that I'm off.  And then it will be 6 weeks back and then 4mos break plus SUMMER (oh how I hate winter) and I definitely be hitting the pool then.  I'm thinking by Christmas I want to be swimming 5km again.  I think that is an acheivable goal.  Then by Feb 10km?  Ready for Whale Island???  This is an open water ocean swim, swimming from an off shore island in to the coast.  It is 9km as the crow flies but you end up swimming more than that because you have to combat waves/tides/currents.  One year that my Dad did it there was a massive current change and they said that the swimmers would have been swimming about 14km.  Lots of swimmers got pulled out (you have to reach the half way mark by a certain time) and man were they exhausted by the end of it.  But I know that if I can swim 10, then I would be able to just keep going.  Its just a level of endurance/fitness.  And if I'm not ready, then I will do the Rotoma Lake swim which is 1.5, 3, 6, or 9km swims.

I'm thinking about putting my food journal tracking on here, at the moment I have my exercise/food journal on paper.  But I'd have to be more organised and get on here every day then -L-  Speaking of food, I am so sad - I found out that the average chicken doner kebab is around 1000cals.  I eat one at least every weekend for lunch!!  I thought they were healthy.  Honestly though I can't see how they can be more calories than a double whopper with cheese!  I'm wondering what they include (i.e. cheese, sour cream, mayonnaise none of which I eat).  So guess I need to find a new mall lunch.

Tuesday, 5 July 2011

Legs like logs

Oh. ow. wow.

So PT session today, jeepers did he work me hard.  I went in at 11:30 for consultation session where he decided what he was going to make me do, that took an hour.  Awesome because he showed me how to use some of the weight machines that I wasn't sure about and also showed me how to do lunges properly.  He admired my squat technique, I didn't tell him it was because when I first started exercising I was using the Kinect which of course acts like a PT and was always telling me to squat lower and stick my butt out more, so I guess I learned!  And once I had lunge technique down he handed my free weight and was like yeh now we're going to do it with weights.  Then I went back at 3pm for the actual work out session, my legs were already sore from learning how to do lunges -LOL-  But I pushed through it, I'm doing the same number of reps of weights but three sessions instead of two, and at higher weights. 

In all honestly I knew that I wasn't working out as hard as I could be, but I didn't realise how much more I could push myself with the weights just by having someone tell me that I could.  Having said that omg my thighs are killing me today.  I had planned on going to the gym tomorrow but I thought I had better have a rest day.

Are you going to quit, or commit?

This has become my new motto. I have had to ask myself that a few times today, for example I was thinking of skipping the gym, but I said it and got my ass to the gym. And I worked out harder than normal, I really gave it 150% today - a sign that its time to revamp the work out, to push myself more. No more saying "I can't do ...".

I'm committing!

Monday, 4 July 2011

No Monday-itis for me

Booked in for an exercise consultancy session on Wednesday.  I figured it was time for a shake up, I’ve been going to the gym and just doing whatever with no real plan.  Its times to get some professional advice.

40min on the eliptical, man my legs are tired this evening.  I am planning on going swimming tomorrow to win my “just keep swimming challenge” badge ;)

Weight: 91kg

Friday, 24 June 2011

5 months on...

So it has been five months since I started reducing my weight, what's changed?
  • My weight: 25 kg (55lb) gone, an average of 5kg (11lbs) a month is more than I expected. I'm preparing for that loss to be slower, to reach plateau and have to bust through it. I am re-evaluating my month goal now and am going to aim for 3kg a month. I think that is realistic without being ambitious.
  • My eating style: I'm eating a much healthier balanced diet without depriving myself. I'm still eating take aways, just sensibly. I think eating is more important than exercise when it comes to my reduction in weight (this might not be true for others)
  • Exercise: I cannot realistically get 5 workouts in a week, but I can do at least one.
What I've learned:
  • I have learned that I am great at making excuses and tradeoffs.
  • It takes more than 21 days to make or break a habit -LOL-
  • I love exercise
  • I can do it (be it lose weight, or start running). The little voice in my head is slowly being drowned out by a far more positive voice
What I've achieved
  • Well obviously dropping the weight
  • This morning was the first time EVER that I have weighed less than my husband! 15 years its taken -LOL- He was a skinny bean when we met, he has put it on now but of course once I start losing he starts losing too. But woohoo, I weigh less!
  • I don't have to shop in the fat section!
  • I can run, not far or long yet, but I can do it. Currently doing first week of C25K
  • More confidence but still a ways to go

Ok so I'm not posting my unsexy underwear progress pics yet, I'm not that game to show that side by side show -LOL- But here is a before and progress (today) pic. Plus a baby shot coz I loves my kids

Thursday, 23 June 2011

Highway to hell… fail! -LOL-

So I tried the highway to hell challenge today, fuck me it was hell -LOL-  And I while I failed the challenge I’m stoked, because it made me push myself.  In hindsight though I should have done it on a lower resistance and I might have achieved.  I need to copy down all the summer slam challenges so that I can at some stage achieve them all!

I am intending on posting pics soon, was going to do it yesterday but couldn’t find the camera.  Found it so will get hubby to take pics tonight.

Tuesday, 21 June 2011

No challenges, just the norm

So last two days I’ve just gone for plain ol’ workouts and staying on plan.  I was very tempted to have crap today but limited it to one small piece of chocolate and then used the will power and said no more.  So I came well in energy budget.
Next week I’m having a girls day, lunch and movies.  This is going to be a tough day because it will be a calorie dense day.  I’m already thinking about how to deal with it - including going to the gym in the morning, making sure I eat a healthy option for lunch and then just enjoying some popcorn but nothing else.  Problem is K is a major sweet tooth and buys a ton of candy and I just can’t say no.  She knows I’m in the process of reducing my weight (note I did not say trying to lose, I’m not trying I’m doing, and I’m not losing because I’m not going looking for it) but she is a skinny-bean so to her chowing down on a kg of candy is nothing.  So either I need to make it clear to the girls that they need to be strong for me, or I need to find some will power, or I just enjoy myself.  I’m thinking of the later, its an uncommon thing and I figure I need to think of this as the rest of my life and I need to be able to deal with this.  So enjoy but don’t binge.  I don’t know.

Monday, 20 June 2011

“When the zombie outbreak first hit, the first to go, for obvious reasons… were the fatties”

“The first rule of Zombieland: Cardio.”
~ Columbus

Now if you’ve not seen the movie Zombieland you should see it. And today I ran away from zombies before opening up a can of fat-ass whooping. I’m actually feeling a little sore from it, love that sore feeling from working out.

I am in the middle of exam marking at the moment, I nearly let that be an excuse to not exercise. But I was like hang on a minute, do I really not have time? No, I can spare two hours and just grade papers later in the evening after the kids have gone back to bed, get moving no more excuses. It felt so good to kick my own butt into gear.

Friday, 17 June 2011

Day 5

Today I jumped on the kinect for the first time in ages, to do the "watch tv" challenge.  For those not familiar with kinect, it is the controller free play for Xbox 360, that shows you on screen playing.  What was really cool was seeing how my body shape had changed from when I started exercising until now (because I've not played on the kinect for months).  I did some cardio boxing and some box smashing.  I would have done more but the other half was getting a bit impatient.  He actually joined in for some but he had to bail, woohooo I out exercised him yeh.

I realised that I'm not all that far from ONEderland.  This challenge will totally help me reach it. As a well known kiwi celebrity said on wheel of fortune, "can I get an O for oawesome" -g-

Thursday, 16 June 2011

Day four

Boot camp sucks -LOL-  Didn't manage to do them it, but now its a goal to be able to do this.  I can't even do one push up at the moment, so yeh, won't be completing this one anytime soon.  But I decided to do 100 squats, 100 side lunges (50/50), 100 front lunges and 100 jumping jacks.  I needed to go put on an extra sports bra for the jumping jack LOL