So I am sick of trying to lose weight. I'm not getting anywhere because I don't have the motivation any more of watching what I eat. Exercise wise I'm doing great, I can run 25min, and pretty sure if I tried I could run 30. Almost finished the c25k awesome! But if anything the last three months has really emphasised that weight reduction is 90% diet, 10% exercise.
On a Monday I weigh in and then I work out and for three days I usually do well. Then I have four days where I don't work out (kids home, then weekend) and I don't watch what I eat and instead of listening to my body I eat more than I need to. For example last night after dinner I wasn't hungry but Neil had a snack so I had one. Its that mindless eating that is doing it.
And the truth is, after a year of thinking about it I'm just tired. I wish I was happy with my accomplishment so I could just say yep I'm here lets just maintain. But I'm not. Will I ever be? Who knows. But right now I am stuck at 87kg. I go down to 85 and then back up. Bounce bounce bounce. Its frustrating, what I really want to see is 84, I feel like breaking that barrier would be so amazing, but its still not enough to push myself, to make myself accountable for everything I eat.
So what now? Probably no changes, I'll keep trudging. I've hit the wall for motivation and as my beauty therapist said I've hit the ceiling as well because I've lost so much weight that to keep going I need to really increase my calorie deficit. Some days I'm enthused, others (like today) dejected. And so I trudge...