I just want to eat

I hate days like this, its boredom eating and all I want to do is just go nomnomnom.  Its not having Neil at home, the kids are in bed and I've got nothing to do.  So I know it is boredom, I'm trying to "thing through the eat" but I find myself wanting to bargain.  If I do an extra 30min exercise I can eat X.

The frustration of weight loss is starting to get to me.  How much is slows down, the bounce around, the slipping self-control.  I'd love to lose 10kg in the next two months which I know I could if I was super determined, but I'm not.  Not with the holiday season looming especially!  But if I did I would reach goal in exactly 1 year.  That would have been awesome.  But I need to be realistic and remember any loss is good, focus on how much better I feel.

I'm losing my zen today, it best be a passing phase!

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Cereal and milk
Small handful of snippets [~5]
Apple
Couscous and chickpea salad [couscous, chickpea, tomato, cucumber, capsicum, chicken stock, corn]
Toast [2 slices, one vegemite and butter, one peanut butter]
Banana chips [? less than 10]
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2.2km swim (1 hour)

Another Monday

Not much to report really, DH is in Australia again so its just me and the kiddies and I'm missing him.  Not sure when he will be back, hopefully Thursday but as he is due back over there again next week they might just tell him to stay over the weekend which will suck.  At least once this month is over he won't be heading back anytime soon and work should settle down for him.

I was completely off plan over the weekend, but scales don't seem to be showing too much damage.  86.4kg and that was weighing in at lunch time because I had forgotten.  So after breakfast plus water.  I might just have to weigh tomorrow to get a better idea, or I might just not and see what Friday brings.  Trying hard not to focus too much on the scale, get away from my creeping obsession.  I was thinking I should have done "no weigh november".  I've lost another cm or so around my midsection (I don't find measuring to be very accurate as I'm sure I always measure slightly different places, but I have def lost some).

Started week three of C25K yesterday and did another session today (one actually running, the other on the treadmill).  I think I might need to repeat this week, I can't see me being ready to graduate to the next level next week.  But all good, I'm getting better at running on the treadmill, and I think it is helping me with pacing which is where my big problem is.  I am running too fast, no good at the slow jog.

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Cereal and milk
Chicken salad sammich [for lunch and dinner, 4 in total]
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2.3km swim (1 hour)
30min treadmill (C25K week 3)
10min elip

Maybe I'm in the 180s?

So I weighed in at 86kg (189.5lb).  I really bounce around its amazing, I weigh on a Monday and a Friday, and sometimes I sneak a scale peek during the week.  It seems the closer I am getting to goal the more I want to weigh to see how I change, and the more I fluctuate.  But it seems I've finally broken the 88kg bounce (I kept going from 88 to 88.5 and 88.8 and down again).  Now I just need to see 85 on that scale and that means 100lb gone.  Next week I will see that number.

Today is going to be a reaaaallly bad day.  Oakley's birthday party, chocolate cupcakes, peanut butter cups, fairy bread, lollies are the bad food on the list.  I just ate a big yummy chicken sammich and I'm planning on eating a little bit of crap but to stick with the strawberries if I feel the need to snack.  I'm stoked though because I made peanut butter cups which are so easy but I've never done.  My friend who is coming is dairy-free so I was trying to think of good dairy-free foods and ended up finding the recipe for dairy-free cups and thought man those are so easy to make!  Peanut butter cups aren't a food that is common in NZ, in fact most people have never tried PB and choc together!

But I'm not stressing over it, if I pig out c'est la vie.  I'll go for a run this evening and get in at least one other work out over the weekend.  Long term trends are what matter, not weekly weights.

Log: Thursday 17 Nov
Cereal and milk
Strawberries [4]
Vege fritata (4 egg whites, 2 full eggs, carrots, spinach, pumpkin, broccoli, capsicum)
Chicken salad loaf (from bakery, with mayo and thick white bread)
Few chocolate buttons [~5)

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No exercise

From the garden

There is something very satisfying about eating food you've grown yourself.  For example the salad I had this evening (lettuce, spinach, chives, basil, tomato) were all ingredients from my garden.  I am so excited to see things growing and anticipating using them.

We are growing:

• peas
• beans
• carrots
• tomatoes
• lettuces
• capsicums (bell peppers)
• spinach
• broccoli
• cauliflower
• various herbs
• spring onions
• strawberries
• grapes (two varieties, but they won't fruit until Jan/Feb)
• Other fruit trees non summer

It is truly awesome!

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Log: Wednesday 16th November

Cereal and milk
Chicken salad sammich [1] (chicken, cheese, cucumber, lettuce, tomato, wholegrain bread)
Green salad (lettuce, spinach, chives, basil, tomato)
Lasagna (tomatoes, onions, beef, pasta, cheese, herbs)

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1.5km swim (45min)
42min elliptical
approx 1000cals burned

Log: Tuesday 15th October

Cereal and milk
Chicken salad sammich [2] (chicken, lettuce, tomato, cheese, whole grain bread)
Mini muffins [6]
WW McD Seared chicken burger (chicken, bun, lettuce, tomato, no dressing)

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2km swim (1hour)

Tracking

I have decided I need to start tracking what I am eating and exercising.  Previously I haven't had much success with doing it on the comp, for some reason pen and paper work better.  But I'd like to do it here to keep it all together.

Today is Oakley's birthday, one!  How is my little man one!!

Also I swum 2km today, it took me an hour.  I use to be able to do 3km in an hour but I'm pretty stoked that I can swim more than 500m still LOL




Monday 14th November
30min treadmill (c25k week 2)
15min bike
two circuits weights

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chicken salad sammich [2] (chicken, lettuce, spinach, basil, cheese, tomato, roasted capsicum, whole grain bread)
strawberries [4]
banana
chicken salad (chicken, lettuce, carrot, tomato, capsicum)
potato (1/2 medium)
cupcake

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